Wow, I haven't given up yet!

I am alctually fairly impressed with myself considering I have managed to keep up with the blog. Mainly because the new year started, I went back to school, and to top all that off I am combating sickness. I know and it's rather depressing I had to turn down my bff, and Zumba tonight. Curse you sickness(shakes fist)

Although today, I found something that I am truly grateful for. That would be education. Without it, I would not be able to pursue my dream of a Forensic Investigator, and without education, those teaching me, would not be able to do so.

I took my midterm today, needless to say it pretty much sucked.. I managed to fail my first one, but really it was on terrorism.. Who wouldn't flunk it.. Oh that's right, everyone BUT me... But I am much happier with how my second one turned out, A- on my criminal evidence class! WOOT!

I do realyl well sometimes, and honestly this is the very first test, I have EVER failed... I was rather dissapointed in myself, and thankfully, my teacher loves me, and is willing to work out some extra credit with me.

So that's what it is folks, to education, to the all the teacher that put up with me, cause heaven knows I was the kid with ADHD, that wouldn't shut up, or stay in my seat. Also, to Mrs. Hook, my crazy as hell art teacher, whole was so creative, made up her own rap lyrics to Eminem's, Real Slim Shady. (Oh man talk about one of the most awkward things you've ever seeen!) But seriously, love that lady!

I have learned a lot from many different people in my life, and different things they have taught me. Drama: Only encouraged my awesome dulisional self, Choir: more encouragement of insanity. Art: My second love* sigh * Debate: Really? They should have put me in this class so much sooner. I learned to have a voice, and at last a REAL opinion, and a back bone.

There is a huge list of people who have contributed to my life. I am gald they were a part of it, even if it were just a momnet. To more learning, more en deavours, and obviously, more ADHD moments.. Oh something shiny!

Continuing Gratitude!

Well today was rather uneventful, I spent the majority of the day being rather sick, and held up on the couch. Thankfully I have an awesome husband who surprised me, and brought home the movie Knight and Day, from the redbox. Needless to say, some days he really rocks!

So as I make my way through my terrible stomach cramps I am trying to decide what I am really grateful for today. Today I would like to kick the bucket to my in-laws. Dave and Shelly, If you knew my in-laws you would be way jealous of me. They are so thoughtful, and really inspiring. Especially cause my mother-in-law is a lot like me, she makes me feel really special when she is over dramatic about her reaction, even if it's just something really tiny that I have done, I feel like a little kindergartner showing her my finger paintings. Okay, so maybe not like that, but truly I am so grateful for them, they set a good example for me, and my husband, and without them, things would be a lot harder for us while we were both attending school.

I don't know what I could possibly ever do to show them my appreciation, but I love them dearly, and only hope that one day I can be nearly as cool as them when I grow up!

Day Numer 2

Today has been kind of hum, drum, day. I woke up this morning, with a terrible sore throat, and feeling very under the weather, I was also dreading the fact that I was believing today was the last day of my winter vacation, and was not looking forward to going back to school tomorrow. I was surprised when I picked up my homework sheet, and noticed that I did not have to go back to school til Tuesday. YES! No, this is not what am going to write about, but it did make my day a whole lot better knowing I got one more day of rest.

However, I did want to write about how grateful I was for my husband, but since I consider that topic one of my greatest to be thankful for, I would give it more thought, and properly prepare for it.

For today's thought, I am very grateful for modern technology. This covers many areas of my life, especially today. For instance, the knowledge to have developed medicine that will not cure my body, but sure as heck make it feel a little better, and help ease my discomfort. The proper developement to have clean drinking water, or even the invention of electricity, and dare I say allow me to use my computer, or my ipod, or my life line(cell phone. Which reminds me, about a week or so ago, we had a terrible snow storm here in Utah. It was bad, it came down for hours, and within that short time, we probably got over a foot of snow. That same evening, at around three in morning, the power went out. In the few hours of it being out, I was reminded how much we truly depend on electricity to keep things going. Light in our house, warmth from the furnace, or even to keep the water warm so that I could take a bath.

So a toast to the one thing, that we will all be slaves to, forever and ever. But, in this one moment, I can be a little grateful that I don't have to live in the dark, or go with out my ipod or my cell phone(heaven forbid).

I would however like to point out at least one good thing that has come from the developement of technology, that would be any product that helps our planet, i.e. solar panels, windmills. We could all be a little more green!

Okay Bleeps, I am gonna go back to bed, maybe make some hot cider, and curl up and sleep a little. Enjoy your Sunday, and tomorrow is the first real day of the New Year!

Here We Go...

And so it starts... I think I just piddled in my pants a little. I cannot believe, a whole year has already come and gone, this time last year, I was making New Year Resolutions, that I managaed to only keep a short period of time. I promised myself last year, that I would lose some weight, and in doing so, Jon and I would concieve. I could have in no way prepared myself for the path that was laid before me this past year.

The many doctor appointments, all the test, and ultimately being diagnosed with PCOS, and a unicornuate uterus. Things I would never wish upon my worst enemy, and sadness, that at sometimes seems so hard to over come, even months after the fact.

I want this year to be different, I want to make my own path of happiness, I want to find something else that provides some kind of joy in my life. Obviously, like any trying to conceive crazy lady, getting pregnant, and being a mother is something I will never stop wanting. But, for once, it would be nice to want something else.

So today, for my first day of many, I am grateful for a second chance, for new beginnigs, and for being lucky enough to find the reset button in life sometimes. I've left a lot of things behind for 2010, a year, a decade of things, memories, and heart ache.

I hope this lays the foundation for the nexy ten years of my life, for new goals, new dreams, and complete happiness.

This year I did make a few goals, and thankfully I started them before 2011 began..

1. Lose weight, I would ultimately love to lose 30 lbs.

2. Graduate.

3. Keep Promises to others, as well as myself.

I pretty much decided to keep this list simple... I have ADHD sometimes, and figured it would be best to humor my short attention span.

Well Bleeps, this is my journey, and hopefully before the end of my month, I have 31 different things to be grateful for, a new look for my blog, and looking forward to the rest of 2011.

Feel inspired, take moments to breath, and always find joy in the little things.

Lots of NEW things

So, I have been spending a lot of time contimplating how I want to kick off my New Year, I have already decided that starting things off by counting one thing every day that I am thankful for. I also have deicded to really get on top of my weight. It's bee a huge issue, and since finding out almost a year ago that I have PCOS, it doesn't exaclty help.

I decided to really start working on my weight issue this month. Since starting in January seems to put way to much pressure on resolutions, it made it easier to convince myself.

I'm particularly excited on what methods I have choosen to help acheive my weight goals. I decided on the Jillian Micheals 30 day shred program, just to get things started, and I also have decided to take up Zumba, and since we already have a gym membership, I have 3 things on my side to help, and keep things interesting. It's hard when you have a short attention span, not seeing results, and doing the same thing over and over again.

For instance if I took up running, I would have to do outside running, that way I could look at everything.. the whole inside thing doesn't work for me. I'm kind of demanding when it comes to working out.

So, This is good, I will be able to keep tabs on myself, using this as a way to answer for myself, and what I am doing with my time, and also kicking my year off with gratitude. Needless to say, if you can't tell, i'm pretty excited. Also since I have already lost 6lbs thus far, I am feeling pretty dang good!

So, my end goal, I want to be able to walk into any store pick up a peice of clothing, and know that it will fit me. I want to be healthier, and have more energy, and really feel good about myself.

I hope this goal thing keeps happening cause it feels good to make them, and actually start a pathway to keep the ball rolling.

Baby, all I want for Christmas is you!

That is probably one of my favortie Christmas songs of all time. Mariah Carey, although I am sure that we have different meanings to this is song. I translate it it, that I litterally want a baby for Christmas.

This is not the second Christmas I have spent with my husband, and although we couldn't be happier, it kinda plan sucks, when someone ask you want you want for Christams, and secretly in the back of your mind all you can think is "I don't think they sale new uterus at Wal-mart" Okay so a little graffic on my part. But really, I don't think you could get much happier at least in my position.

I wish I could share more of the inter workings of my life at this current moment. There are things in the works that could drastically change our lives forever. (No worries, I'm not pregnant.) But, there is just so much happening, and it's hard to be excited when it's still hanging by a thread. All I guess I can really say, is please keep us in your prayers.

There is a song by an artist, If you have never heard of him, you should, Micheal McLean, I love his music. I've always love this particular song, and even though I heard it for the first time when I was about 14 years old. This song has made a huge impact on my life, and it just relates so much how I feel every year at this time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eM7pXboXXv4

Okay... So I looked every where on the internet for this song, and this is the only thing I could find... Sorry, you have to listen to the first part, or skip through it a little... Don't hate me. It's not even the prettiest version of this song. The song is titled, Mary let me hold her baby. If you get a chance you should look it up. The CD is called the Forgotten Carols. Seriously good stuff!

now for kicks and giggles.

Merry Christmas!!!

I gotta find...something.

So, I have been thinking the past few days that I have been kind of a negative ninnie, and yes I love that title, and no, I don't care what you think about it. lol

What I was thinking is that I need to start my year off being more thankful, so I think starting the first day in January, I am going to shoot for 30 days of thankfulness, and optimism... sigh. I had do something like this for a class I had last year. For two weeks, we needed to find 5 things a day we were thankful for. I felt like I was scrapping the bottom of the barrel, but in retrospective, everything I was thankful for, I really was thankful for.

I am eager to get this ball rolling, and hope that I can stick with it. Oh man, that means I gotta blog every day, blah!

I don't feel overly confident in my blogging sometimes, I mean, heck reading other people blogs, after I am done, I feel like that person is 10 times funnier than me, and there is not way I could keep things entertaining.. So if you aren't sleepig yet, then I guess it's a good thing.

My goal with this, I want to increase my blog followers, and I think that means my blog needs a make over. Oh Brit, Brit, gonna need your help with that! I guess this means, I gotta better learn how to navigate the Blogger Website. You'd think by now I would have gotten it down.

Okay girlies, get ready for the new year! Oh also if you got any suggestions on my new year en devour.. Yeah, advice will gladly be welcomed!